moi? definitely…no sort of arguing. i want to go back to writing so bad that i can’t put anything into words. seems like can’t find the right words to put myself back into blogging. see, my sentences are not making sense at all, i think. trying hard na yata, hehe. i guess i can start blogging about any simple stuff i can think of and eventually work my way up (*wising on a star 
). let’s see on the coming days…let’s wait and see, mmmmmm!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!
just for one day,
there’ll be no rules,
there’ll be no worries,
there’ll be no guidelines,
there’ll be no deadlines,
there’ll be no what-ifs…
just listen to your heartbeat and dance,
it is the rhythm of life.
so, don on your dancing shoes
and sway with me!
my mind is equally empty as our house is now. 97% of our stuff is gone. few days before, during and right after the pack out are the most backbreaking and sapping stressful days of our lives. grabe, nakaka-windang 
.
i don’t miss most of our stuff…not even the big screen. it’s funny how little things can liberate you from the big things that we’re used to have. we watch dvd’s by hooking up the portable player to the tv and just relying on the tv’s speaker. it’s all good, i don’t fret at all. i’m loving the space and clutterless drawers. what i’m missing right now are my washer and dryer…and that’s an understatement. laundry-less means less stress for me and james, i guess it becomes an hobby now. i love doing laundry, i love the scent of clean sheets and towels. now, i go to the laundrymat to do it but with apprehensions. i know it’s pathetic, i just miss my w&d so bad.
i will definitely miss this place!
but i’ll be home…
to the place where i belong!
i’m stumped.
my body is whacked.
my mind is about to go blooey.
my hands are full.
i have an advancement exam in exactly a month.
i have not gone through my books, worst not even my bibliography.
all these because of moving.
i see all these happenning.
but i guess i’ll never be wired…
regardless!
*sigh* (this is all i can do, *sigh* again )
Appetizer:
On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 being highest) how much do enjoy watching sports on television?
- i’ll say 4! i get frenzied only during superbowl and best of four for basketball. (read: as in screaming on top of my lungs especially when chargers are playing and spurs). also, well-advertised boxing!
Soup:
If you could completely memorize any one work of fiction, which one would you pick?
- harry potter’s series. they’re so ‘in’ that i don’t think i can ever catch up
Salad:
What is your favorite breakfast food?
- not a breakfast eater but on weekends, i would love to have bagel with cream cheese and caramel macchiato or the traditional pinoy breakfast of longganisa, vinegar with garlic and garlic fried rice
Main Course:
Name something fun you can do for less than $10.00.
- a caramel frapuccino and blueberry coffee cake while i stroll around the mall for window shopping. i’ll go back to the mall when i have more than $10.00 to spend, hehehe.
Dessert:
How long does it usually take you to fall asleep?
- forever or only when james start yelling at me to turn off the tv or the computer! i have to force myself to sleep. i’m a night owl and definitely not a morning person.
i’ll be painting the town red…wanna join?
no, we’re not celebrating chinese new year.
but i really do have the reason to celebrate .
this is a slap on the face for those who didn’t believe in me,
and a shoutout to those who did.
once again…i proved you wrong!
you guys are overwhelming…
in fact, you’re a handful!
too much to handle.
but how can i resist you,
you’re my life…my family!
thanks for spending time with us.
thanks for driving 800 miles and flying 10,000 miles.
i was loving our ‘seating’ and ‘sleeping’ arrangements.
thanks for the chaos, noise, stress, fatigue…
they’re all good
i was actually hating the non-stop food trips,
and of course the goodbyes.
but i’ll see you back in two weeks or so,
because it’s you guys who can’s resist ME!
(not on the picture: kuya allan, ate mayeth, ma-an, allen, andrei – we’ll see you guys in two weeks) kuya danny was the man behind the camera.
those that are hankering for limelight will be blind sighted…
no, i don’t mean it literally but it’s just fr**k*n’ annoying. if you’re jealous, prove yourself to be worthy and try not to step on somebody else’s toes. if i can give you an advice, read this with your eyes wide open til they popped:
don’t just be an statistic, be remembered!
i’ve come at peace to a lot of people and i feel great about it. it’s true that time heals all wounds…you don’t know when but it will come. i felt overwhelming joy…i’ve missed these people so much, they were part of my being. i know what happened in the past can’t be erased. it destroyed me at some point (personally…emotionally and in general) but that just made me a better person and it outspread my outlook in life. sabi nga “charged it to experience” na lang. i have a sense of fulfillment. i know for some it may take a lil bit longer than others, i’ll be fine. until that ‘pinch’ is still harrowing, i’m not gonna push it. it may take time, but i know it will come. now, i’m a step ahead from yesterday!
i’m going home,
back to the place where i belong.
philippines here i come!!!
it’s been three years since my last one. i don’t feel as excited like 3 years ago. maybe because it’s been a while. aside from family and relatives, i’ll be reuniting with my old friends. see y’all!
***edit (03 May 07): i’m glad i did. i’m having the time of my life. i’m enjoying all the food, papmpering (foot spas and massages, baby), not driving, food, friends, 41 and did i mention food? i just wish i can still fit on my uniform when i get back
i know i should be thankful. believe me i am. i just don’t get it. of all the 365 days a year, why now? i’m hurting right now. am i or is it just me? am i taking everything intensely, wherein reality i’m not supposed to? i don’t know. i can’t be lucid right now. i just wish that you’re here. yes…you! so you can tap me at the back and say everything will be alright and this too shall pass.
aaahhhhh…now i’m okay. i am just trying to spit out my bitter pill.
i’m still going behind the steering wheel and shop!
that’s how they know you by. what a cute name, though. but for us your family, you’re the best dad in the whole world. another birthday shoutout for this month…march is definitely a birthday month for our family, huh!
happy, happy birthday dad. we love you so much and next year, you’ll start celebrating your birthday again with us, not just through phone calls. thank you so much for being you…our dad!
what my husband does every weekday morning?
1. he snooze the alarm on his phone for three times.
2. watch Fox news for 5-10 minutes before we finally get up.
3. we both fix the side of the bed we sleep-in.
4. brush his teeth while I jump in the shower, he then takes the dirty clothes and my cell phone with him downstairs.
5. he would turn-on the TV, make his coffee and make my sandwich. And on days I have extra 3 minutes to spare, he would pour milk and cereal on my bowl so I can eat before I head out.
6. he takes yuree out to the garage to feed him. And yes, he trims the brown edges off my bread.
7. while I’m going through the pantry/fridge for my snack/lunch, he would then start my car.
8. we bid goodbyes, kiss and the ‘ingat’ atsutsu. and last, he would ask me if I have my ID with me. (this is a prevention of a much serious problem that may arise later on…read: me calling him while driving to check if my ID is in my uniform’s pocket from yesterday. if it is, i‘ll have to make a u-turn to come back or worse if i already drove further enough and I’m running late, he needs to drop it off at my work.)
9. he then takes yuree out for a short walk to do his ‘business’.
10. then he warms his coffee again for the second time and eats his breakfast while watching the news.
11. occasionally, if there’s a pile of laundry, he would load it into the washer and will head upstairs to take his shower.
12. before heading out for work, he then loads the laundry into the dryer. (If this is the case, I’ll fold the clothes when I get home from work while cooking dinner. See, I do some good things too, heck…like ¼ of what he does.)
all this because i’m not a morning person…i am such a mess and grumpy every morning. i would forget things especially my ID card that I need to log-on to my computer. i would always drive a little bit over speed limit (sshhh) to make it right on time. I have to be at work by 0700 and he doesn’t go to work until 0800. his work is just right around the corner too. he doesn’t really have to get up early, but he does…all for the love of MOI!
13. on his lunch break, no more chores here; only one more heroic thing that he does for me…he records the soaps on TFC!!! so when i get home from work (this is before or while cooking dinner and doing the laundry), i can watch the soaps with the luxury of forwarding/rewinding them. (i despise the commercial breaks on TFC, they only have 3 or 4 kinds that they play over and over again on each show. and if i don’t like the actor/s or the scene, i forward it 
).
i adore what he does for me but i do not appreciate it all the time. i always pick a fight with him every time he does the laundry before me. he just can’t stop working/moving around the house. don’t get me wrong, who wouldn’t love to have him as a hubby, huh! but I need to step-up and stop what he’s doing for me, slowly. when? i don’t know. i need to learn how to pick-up myself when the need arises. he’s been doing this ever since. i guess i’m enjoying it as much he enjoys doing it for me, hee. and oh, he cooks more than me. he has more passion on cooking than i do, but i can cook…mekeni yata ini, hee!
so, happy, happy birthday and happy wedding anniversary TUTS!
(i was a full time housemaid during these days, for a change haha).
i want to give a shout out to my sisters…
happy birthday DHALS (3/05) and KHALS (3/11)!
i love you guys so much and you’re the best ate’s in the whole world, mwah!
(l-r: khals, talhey, dhals and mom)
it’s been over three months since i had you.
you’re the first thing i see when i head downstairs.
james suggested to take you down, but i insists…you are staying where you are.
but i might give in, since we are about to move again in a few months.
but for now, stay where you are…here’s what’s standing tall, proud and arrogant…
i know, for crying out loud we’re in march now. oh well, i guess i’m weird! but maybe the reason behind this is because i still have presents under the tree, hee!
***edit: on 1 july 2007 @ 0730, i finally put my tree away – per james and my mom’s persistent demands.
i’m excited to start blogging again…albeit the lost of previous entries from blogspot. i’m actuallly looking forward to tweaking my site, which i already did for my header image. i hope it’s not just all about tweaking…haaaahh, exitement!
**edit: my third header so far, hee!
…i can get my blogspot address back, i’ll be fine in the world of blogging again. all i ask is one day or even for a couple of hours, just so i can import all my entries here. it’s been almost a year since i stopped…my account was accidentally deleted (by me, waaaahhh) and just when i finally realized my idiocy, somebody had already grabbed my address. i was dumbfounded, that’s a year of blogging. i’ve a back-up of all my enties and templates, i just need to borrow my used-to-be blogspot address. sigh!
